Trigger warning: this piece discusses themes of borderline personality disorder, self-harm and suicidal ideation.
cluster b
what do you see?
someone free?
or spread between three?
cluster b
fear of abandonment
trying to manage it
it was an accident
here comes the abandonment
cluster b
intense mood swings
breaking things
crying over missing rings
can’t stop the frequent swings
cluster b
chaotic relationships
constantly on battleships
preparing for warships
can’t keep the partnerships
cluster b
impulsivity
frequent companions willingly
black and white visibility
obvious instability
cluster b
self-harm and injury
completely unworthy
stuck in tornado-like misery
victory with the smallest injury
cluster b
unfulfilling and perpetual emptiness
spending money so precarious
sense of self so curious
ever changed from the emptiness
cluster b
paranoia ideation
clues proving affiliation
persistent information
on stand for litigation
cluster b
constantly changing identities
fickle specialties
unknown necessities
never-ending complexities
so show me,
you say she’s a cluster b,
tell me, what do you see?
because
that
CLUSTER B
you
see
is
ME
-Adrianna Rangel
*Thank you to Adrianna Rangel for allowing us to share this poem. You can see more of her writing and check out her book, ‘Book of Thoughts’ in which this poem appears, here.*
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