Tests can be so nerve-wracking! You don’t know if you’re going to pass or fail. I think we can all understand this feeling!
Let me share an experience I had with one… A few weeks ago I sat my restricted driving test. I was so worried that if I failed then I would never hear the end of it from my brothers and that I was going to relapse from feeling like a failure. Well, guess what happened? I failed it. Barely but it was still a fail. I felt so bad at first. My dad didn’t let me drive home that day because I wasn’t feeling great. Then my mindset started to change on that drive home. I tried to look at it a bit more positively.
I’m a strong believer in ‘everything happens for a reason.’ This led me to try having a different perspective. Maybe I didn’t pass because it just wasn’t quite the right time? You see, I’ve struggled with an eating disorder for a few years now but when I drive, I make sure I eat something decent in order to have fuel in my body to help lessen the chances of passing out and putting everyone in danger. I thought about how maybe if I had my restricted license now, then I might lessen my eating, whereas if I hold onto my learners longer, then I’m going to continue eating more before driving. I’m thinking by the time I get my restricted then maybe I’ll have developed enough of a better eating habit that it sticks.
When I got home, my brothers found out about my result. Instead of teasing me like I thought they would, they were really reassuring and kind. I was taken aback but grateful. It’s now been a few weeks and they haven’t said a single negative thing about my result!
You see, test results don’t need to be a bad thing. If you fail, try and look at it positively. If you pass then that is great! You don’t need to assume the worst if you were to fail. Your brain will almost definitely try to make it seem worse than what it will be! Try and trust the process. If you fail then at least you tried and failed rather than quit and never tried! You can always re-sit the test. I’m re-sitting my restricted test and I know I will pass it when it’s meant to happen, whether that be next time or not!
If you fail, it doesn’t matter. It won’t change who you are as a person. Maybe it’ll even make you more determined to try again? If you pass, then congratulations!
Remember, you are amazing and worthy no matter your result!
Keep fighting!
You’ve got this!
All my love,
-Zara
P.S. I never relapsed!
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