Trigger warning: this piece discusses themes of anxiety and panic attacks.
I am ok, I am calm, I am on the right track,
But something hits me hard and puts my progress further back,
One minute I am fine and think everything is going good, when clearly it's not,
My heart is pounding fast, I can't breathe properly and I am getting very hot,
What is happening? Why do I feel this way?
It's starting to happen now every single day,
It's affecting all aspects of my life; from my work, relationships and socialising,
It's no wonder that I want to hide away; it's very uncomfortable and paralysing,
I now realise that I'm having panic attacks. I have built up a lot of anxiety, fear and stress,
I feel like I'm extremely stuck and my life has turned into a complete and utter mess,
I'm going to look into helping my panic attacks; through talking therapy, breathing exercises and relaxation,
So I can control how I think and feel through every single situation.
-Bella
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